立冬

立冬

睡前沉澱,翻開電子書閱讀器裡靜置許久的徐國能的《第九味》。斷斷續續地閱讀,像年幼時期吃飯一樣,想到時就扒個幾口,只是讓我分神的不在是晚上六點半黃金時段的卡通,而是為能完成生活的各種勞動,二十歲晚期必須看盡的風景。

前幾日讀完了令我意猶未盡的〈雪地芭蕉〉,全篇散文以第二人稱書寫,是作家徐國能對一位「擁有偉大生命與理想,卻未能相互完成的老師」的紀念。散文的開頭是這麼寫的:

Against the Politics of Respectability: Writing as Attention-Giving

Against the Politics of Respectability: Writing as Attention-Giving

*Note: This essay was written and delivered as a talk on the online panel of “Writing in the time of COVID-19: Race, Dystopia, and the Humanities in/of Crisis.” The panel was sponsored by EALA, Taiwan, organized and moderated by Professor Andy Chih-ming Wang. My deepest gratitude to Andy, who invited me to be part of the conversation in the first place, and to my co-panelists Jessica Chang and Professor Viet Thanh Nguyen, whose feedback and engagement helped me think with more depth. I am grateful, too, for the audience listening in from different parts of the world and the tech support group for the event.